@matigo I wish you luck! My last day was Friday and yet Monday I spent 2.5 hours on Zoom helping someone set up an artwork submission process for an event coming up.
It's weird, watching so many people freak out during this isolation/quarantine period. I think I'm the only person I know who is honestly enjoying this time alone.
@matigo Rather than allowing your "dark thoughts" to force you to come up with justifications for your continued existence, why not challenge theirs? Stop feeding them with your time and attention, stop justifying them by accepting their demands as valid. Instead remove yourself from their entanglement, sit back patiently and see that they dissipate without your continued support.
Your worldview needn't be coloured by every random thought that crosses your mind. Like storm clouds overhead, arguing with them won't change anything but if you simply wait them out eventually they move on.
I know the frustration of thoughts challenging your "right" to exist. But I've found considerable peace can be had once you learn your thoughts do not define you. The human mind is a crazy complex thing and random thoughts often burble up apropos of nothing. It is up to you to decide which thoughts you cling to and which you let evaporate.
really liking this year's United State Of Pop by DJ Earworm. Some previous years have been kinda flat but this year's just works for me. https://www.youtube.com/watch
A sign of a good remix: when the original version comes up on some playlist I switched to the remix.
The R.A.C. remix of Home by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros does that for me.
There may be myriad subgenres in noise, but there is one thing they all have in common: the performer will struggle with broken equipment. Always. Every performer. Every set. something will break.
Good to see such a big crowd at the noisefest this year. Noise is such a niche art form that it can sometimes feel like it’s struggling to keep going.